Oh, yes, she is laughing! You have really helped her, so thank you all so much.
When I got there today she was already much brighter: she had given herself a severe talking to, apparently, and "she ain’t gonna mope no mo’ ". She is tough and determined.
Lesley had also had a long talk with her consultant this morning. I don’t know whether I would have heard about it had the news not been good, but it was. The heart problems are basically still reactions to the original medication which upset her so badly, and now to the newer analgesia, which was stopped when she collapsed again. What that really means is that her heart itself is OK and just doesn’t like her treatment. This is wonderful news and means she still feels she has a life to fight for.
Also the apparent paralysis of her legs should also be only temporary, due to swelling and bruising of her spinal cord during the 3 operations. She should be able to walk again, and maybe to dance. You should see her face. I think she had almost given up hope of that, although she would never admit it. I know she was terrified, but she had faced it before surgery and knew it was a possibility, and she had accepted it. And she would have coped, too, and made something of her life, but oh, she won’t have to. I am still in tears now - joy for her and delight for me. And people may still be able to watch her and say “Who is that lovely dancer?”, which I have heard many times. “That’s my wife.”
She has now, of course, asked for the physio to start exercising her legs, despite her still severe pain. It is slightly awkward that she can’t feel her feet or legs, but the physio offered her a Zimmer frame to start her off. That was not a good suggestion. She will do this like she has won every other battle in this long fight, in her own way. I just hope her body hangs on to keep up with her determination. It will if she has her way.
Thank you all again for the jokes (appreciated by both of us, and I left her chuckling over the printouts), the good wishes and kind thoughts, and for the love and support you have given me. You are a fine example of an internet community and I am proud to know you all.
Ro