Over the weekend, I was with my Middle Eastern dance troupe and the musicians we dance with. Of course, the party quickly turned into a jam session, complete with Indian harmonium, tablas, an assortment of strings (lute, mando, guitar), many bendhirs, etc. I TRIED to play along a bit with my whistles, but I was in way over my head–and Middle Eastern music is tough to play on these Western-sounding whistles, at least for a beginner like me. Luckily, I was able to join in with my zills (finger cymbals) and I’d received a crash course in bendhir, so that was OK…
Normally, I am difficult to intimidate and I have almost no shyness, but I felt so severely outclassed! They were all very encouraging and wanted me to play a whistle solo and then jam with me, but I couldn’t do it. I’ve been playing whistle for over a year now, and I’ve played in public, busking, but around these VERY accomplished musicians, I felt like a real idiot. I feel like, because I only play the whistle, which is so EASY to play on a basic level, that I am not a “real” musician, and I don’t belong in a jam. And then everyone else kept picking up different instruments, switching from flute to guitar to drum without blinking. Needless to say, I am about 10 years from being able to do that, if ever!
I guess, since there’s so many different levels of musical skill & experience here on this board, I’m just curious as to how others feel. Do you feel like “a musician?” If so, how long did that take? I just can’t get over that feeling that I am a spy in the house of music!