Anna,
Sometimes it just happens that way. This is my attitude along with the attitude, “sorry guys that I couldn’t give you that tune”.
You got some excellent advise.
I used to do a good bit of solo work as a folk singer and guitarist. One of the things that helped was arranging to do a sound check befor I performed. Procedurally you might want to make the most of your sound check, if you have to, insist on a sound check, befor the performance, even if it only you requiring it.
The sound check lets you get a feel for the mike, the mixer, the amplification. All the things you don’t want to think about when your performing. A sound check also gives you a feel for the venue and sound in the room. Make sure you do the check with someone who is good at describing the characteristics of the amplified sound their hearing around the venue as you perform your check.
Think of this process, just like, warming up your whistle to room temperature, or checking for moisture, or setting your chair to the proper angle to see the other musicians. Just something that you do, no big deal. Then when you go to perform your mike isn’t the issue.
For me, the issue is connections to the music, to the others playing, and to the audience (in that order). The mike, my instruments, my chair, the stage, the adjustment of the monitors, how well I know the musicians, how many friends I have in the audience, are all just conduits for that all important connection.
For me, my connection to the music, putting my heart into the music, expressing what I feel through the music, this is my primary responsibility. This is most under my control, this is my risk, my will, my choice, and therefor my joy, my ecstacy, my peace, all ways my heart. If I do my part, then the rest falls in place as it should. If I play for thugs, then their connection to me is minimal, because they don’t allow themselves to be connected to anything, even the music. If I play for my dearly beloved, then the connection is complete because the heart was allready shared. All else seems to fall between these extremes. If I don’t connect to the music then the connection is lost, neither thug nor lover connects deeply with empty tunes.
So what does this have to do with freezing befor the mike? What gymnastics can you do to get past the broken circuit. Hmmm…
I sometimes imagine the person to whom I am most beholding, sitting in the very back of the venue, the person whose acceptance is absolute, who is there to hear my music. The only way to reach them is through the mike, over the hubbub of the venue. Connect: Heart to fingers, fingers to instrument, instrument to tune, tune to mike, mike to person in the back of the room. Remember my humanity, imperfect as it is, so the tune, will never be perfect, but the connection, is only made stronger by the shared humanity.
It’s how I enjoy my music and I hope it helps you …

Enjoy Your Music,
Lee Marsh
[ This Message was edited by: LeeMarsh on 2001-10-30 17:23 ]