Much good advice, but I offer something from having been in this condition for months and months.
Independent contracting isn’t so much an option as a necessity. Why? At the upper end, its about benefits and pay scales. The longer you are there, the higher your pay is supposed to get and thats like painting a target on yer backside. Competence is only valuable if you are cheap and don’t threaten the authority of the boss. Just a guess, but it sounds like you.
At middle level, its still about benefits, and especially here in Loopyland, Worker’s Comp costs and other of the many restrictions (paperwork, legal threats) our socialist state has dreamed up to make having employees a liability for anyone.
At low level, its day labor (mostly illegal immigrants). You live in Marin, so you know about the day laborers in San Rafael. If you are a building or landscaping contractor, there is no other sensible way than to pick up some of our new California slaves to get the work done. Soon they will even let em drive to the 7/11 for lunch. Isn’t that kind? We’re not talking about picking grapes (jobs that “regular Americans” won’t do), we are talking about concrete, landscaping, painting, framing, drainage and other blue-collar jobs. It’s probably happening in factories too, though I havent seen it first hand.
So the disincentives for regular employment are numerous at every level. One very extreme example follows: I have a friend who is an expert in self-diagnostic computer system software. He lost his fairly hi-pay job at Extricity and started the job hunt. One employer interviewed him SEVEN times in VERY long interviews which asked very detailed questions. Then they turned him down. They actually MINED this guy for the info but didn’t offer him a job. He began to realize but what could he do? He still needed the job. He’s a commerical contractor now, building warehouses and other commerical buildings. That’s how they treated a renowned professional. And no, no drinking or other problems, rather a great family guy with huge work ethic. multiple degrees and very specialized information in a given field. Think about it; if that’s how they treat a specialist, what chance have generalists in administration etc? Especially if they can OUT-SOURCE the work to foreign countries.
The publicly-funded publications in my last job, mailed to 93,000 households in this area were processed for plates and printed in India, by God knows who in what factory condition. My big-time Progressive Democrat boss (who goes to all the luncheons with the swells, like COngressman Miller and Barbara Lee), the one who fired me, knew all about it and just hoped the word didn’t get out. Taxpayer money used to out-source. You can imagine how the local printing companies felt about it.
As the designer, I was the only American who worked on the project. And then they nullified me, signed a short-term contract with a pathetic excuse of an outside designer (since terminated from further business). That’s California reality. The college is near bankruptcy so they aren’t doing much mailing these days, but offering the info online.
The bottom line is that it SEEMS like everyone is running around the state in their car, cellphone in hand, trying to make it on uncertain, shifting terms. Of course that seems exaggerated, but when you have seen how few “regular” jobs are available, its feels like truth. I have music gigs, I have graphics jobs, but putting it together in one monthly salary to make expenses for my kids and me has been elusive, unlike Carol, I guess.
We are essentially livin’ by our wits in constant reminder of the unfairness of life (which we all know deep-down but have long-periods of denial called regular employment). I sometimes feel like a Dickens street character but I am not dishonest, so petty thievery and scams aren’t an option.
As I said before, good luck buddy. And dulcimer is right, the anger builds up with periodic eruptions, especially if yer a high-strung music-y kinda person, which many of us are here. Accept it and remember that tomorrow is another day, another chance. That’s what I do. That and getting fitted for an orange Home Depot vest when the unemployment runs out.