Sometimes I’m a musician, and sometimes I’m just someone trying to play an instrument; perhaps more often the later than the former.
For me, you’re a musician if, music is something you need to express yourself fully. Music is something you have to participate in. It’s just an integral part of you. It expresses the emotions within that fail to flow through any other outlet. It is the power behind expressing the themes, values, and principles of your life. The musician hears tunes with his inner ear when feelings arise from his heart, just as an author or poet hears words, or as a painter might envision color, texture and line.
As a musician, its about the music. There are all types of musicians. Professional musicians get to do it for a living, amatuer musicians have to keep a day job, and reserve thier off hours for their passion. For folk musicians its a way to connect with common humanity, for traditional musicians it a way to connect with history. When a bunch of folks get togeather and they all get to that point where they’re just dwelling in the music as if it were some alternate reality one could be tranported into … thats the heart of a session, the part that transcends. The music junky that can’t go without that transcendental fix on a regular basis, is a session musician.
For me I’m a musician, when I’m not just playing, I’m actually a part of the music. When where my fingers are and what they’re doing is not important, they’re just part of the music, the music just flows through them.
For me, the true musician plays what he or she feels. They reach inside stirring their own passions and express them through tune or song. The shallow musician or the player thats falling short of being a true musician, expresses the feelings of others without connecting to them, without letting those feeling take root in his or her own heart.
When a two year old giggles with glee watching a ball bounce down stairs, the musician thinks “I’ve got to learn to play rolls that way, so I can put that in the music”. For the musician, studing music, learning new skills, techniques, theories is about expanding the vocabulary, so he or she can better express themselves and find better ways to connect to the music.
The part in me that’s a musician, is mumbling in the backround “thats not what being a musician is about. Just play them …”.
If as a musician you can’t live with out it, then its just best if you …