I thought you all would like to see this. From my oldest daughter, Sarah.
Hello Everybody!
Well - here i am–in Brasov Romania- this is just a great experience - I don’t know that i can even explain it to you all. It is so very beutiful here and Abbot Placid is right, I do feel at home to some degree. But this is going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Yesterday was my first full day with the kids and at first I thought gosh - these kids are fine they didn’t need me to come half way around the world to spend time with them. The facilities are beautiful - several of the staff have degrees in social work or other fields. But then I found my place. We were put with the toddlers and we had just played outside with them all day - it was okay - I mean they are not the 20/20 orphan image except that they don’t wear diapers and they called me “mama” the first day. All of them- they all run up to patrick and myself and say “mama mama” and then if we pick them up the others will bite the child we pick up. But I expected that and I was okay with it. Here’s when I choked and just about lost it: We were helping to take the kids upstairs because it was time for dinner and bed but they were just being shoved through this line and cold water was splashed roughly on their faces. I turned and then Patrick and I heard this lady stomping and yelling at the tiniest child - so i turned away to collect myself and right behind me was this room with disabled children - they were all just lying in their cribs rocking or crying - and no one was with them - one of the girls was tied up. I lost it. I absolutely lost it and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so helpless. It was time for us to go anyway and I didn’t want the children or staff to see me so I walked out quickly. That was yesterday but today I switched my placement to that room, with the disabled children, and I had the best time. There is a Scottish volunteer that works in “the special room” too. So i saw her some. The children are actually very responsive and I recognize most of their illnesses (autism, spina bifida, etc. So I will be okay and I know that I can do this. I’ve found my place and now I know why all of this has happened as it has. Just pray for me please because I won’t be able to do this on my own. It is a huge help to be here with Patrick of course and this city is so bustling and beautiful that I can easily get my mind off work a little every night.
I have to run - Patrick and I are to meet two volunteers in a few minutes. Thank you all for your support - I’ve read all your emails and I just haven’t quite had the time to return them. You are all in my prayers and please please keep us and the children in yours.
Much love,
Sarah Wisely